Quarter of roasted duck and 1 super duper big sized fried rice is too much for me. Help me to finish it!
difficult.. person
5 years ago
Monday 29 September 2008
Friday 26 September 2008
Campur
拜一就正式开学了，
我还在这里蹉跎岁月。
书一本都没买，
脑袋都快生锈了。
刚才，本来我爸要回马了。
不过幸好 London Heathrow Airport 的 Radar 出问题，
所以班机将延迟几天。
Yay!
原来班机延迟也可以讲到 Contract 去的咯。
什么 Contract is frustrated 之类的。
听到我懵嚓嚓。
来说说我在曼城所遇到的人吧。
这里还蛮多马来西亚人的，
大多都蛮友善，
香蕉也不拽。
这里也蛮多智慧型书生淑女。
呵呵！
不过，这里有一个大煞风景的白痴 KL 仔。
自以为是到要死。
Hanley: "Hello, I'm Hanley. I heard that you are from Malaysia. I'm from Malaysia too."
Idiot: "Oh." (look at me indifferently.)
Hanley: "I'm staying in Dalton Ellis hall. You too?"
Idiot: (he ignore me)
Hanley: (i repeat my question)
Idiot: "No."
Hanley: "What course are you taking? I'm a first year law undergraduate."
Idiot: (ignore me again)
Hanley: (since he doesn't want to answer, I keep quiet)
Idiot: Chemistry. (walk away)
Hanley: ...........
你拽屁啊？从小到大都没有人这样对我，你是哪儿根葱啊？
Hanley's kind advice to that bloody idiot : you can go fly kite already. if you do not know how, I can teach you. just do what benjamin Franklin did, but change the benang to dawai emas (emas adalah conductor yang baik), wear metal things on your body (as many as you wish), don't wear shoes, put copper wire under you leg and lastly fly the kite in padang (big padang is preferred and no other objects that are taller than you should be around)
我还在这里蹉跎岁月。
书一本都没买，
脑袋都快生锈了。
刚才，本来我爸要回马了。
不过幸好 London Heathrow Airport 的 Radar 出问题，
所以班机将延迟几天。
Yay!
原来班机延迟也可以讲到 Contract 去的咯。
什么 Contract is frustrated 之类的。
听到我懵嚓嚓。
来说说我在曼城所遇到的人吧。
这里还蛮多马来西亚人的，
大多都蛮友善，
香蕉也不拽。
这里也蛮多智慧型书生淑女。
呵呵！
不过，这里有一个大煞风景的白痴 KL 仔。
自以为是到要死。
Hanley: "Hello, I'm Hanley. I heard that you are from Malaysia. I'm from Malaysia too."
Idiot: "Oh." (look at me indifferently.)
Hanley: "I'm staying in Dalton Ellis hall. You too?"
Idiot: (he ignore me)
Hanley: (i repeat my question)
Idiot: "No."
Hanley: "What course are you taking? I'm a first year law undergraduate."
Idiot: (ignore me again)
Hanley: (since he doesn't want to answer, I keep quiet)
Idiot: Chemistry. (walk away)
Hanley: ...........
你拽屁啊？从小到大都没有人这样对我，你是哪儿根葱啊？
Hanley's kind advice to that bloody idiot : you can go fly kite already. if you do not know how, I can teach you. just do what benjamin Franklin did, but change the benang to dawai emas (emas adalah conductor yang baik), wear metal things on your body (as many as you wish), don't wear shoes, put copper wire under you leg and lastly fly the kite in padang (big padang is preferred and no other objects that are taller than you should be around)
Wednesday 24 September 2008
无题
这寂静的夜，没有月的陪伴，好不孤独。
独自一人，
拎着沉重的行李，
从绿洲走到雪地。
雪地的小屋，
没有一个熟悉的面孔，
没有一把熟悉的声音，
没有再熟悉不过的熟悉。
小屋里，
爱斯基摩人的热情，
无法将游牧人封存的心溶化。
心不愿被打开。
飘洋过海的游牧人，
找不着他要的同伴，期望，和快乐。
一直在欺骗自己，
这些很快就会到来。
傻。
想要找回那感觉，
好难。
或许，只有赤道的家，
才能给他温暖。
在这里，
他永远只是个过客。
他想回家。这是他的心声。
他终于开始了一个人的生活。
独步在酷寒之地，
无力又无奈。
深夜里一个人写字，
白天将自己孤立起来，
好让别人不知道他的孤寂。
这就是一个人的生活吗？
或许吧。
Inspired by : 林凡 -- 一个人生活，锦绣二重唱 -- 我的快乐。
独自一人，
拎着沉重的行李，
从绿洲走到雪地。
雪地的小屋，
没有一个熟悉的面孔，
没有一把熟悉的声音，
没有再熟悉不过的熟悉。
小屋里，
爱斯基摩人的热情，
无法将游牧人封存的心溶化。
心不愿被打开。
飘洋过海的游牧人，
找不着他要的同伴，期望，和快乐。
一直在欺骗自己，
这些很快就会到来。
傻。
想要找回那感觉，
好难。
或许，只有赤道的家，
才能给他温暖。
在这里，
他永远只是个过客。
他想回家。这是他的心声。
他终于开始了一个人的生活。
独步在酷寒之地，
无力又无奈。
深夜里一个人写字，
白天将自己孤立起来，
好让别人不知道他的孤寂。
这就是一个人的生活吗？
或许吧。
Inspired by : 林凡 -- 一个人生活，锦绣二重唱 -- 我的快乐。
Monday 22 September 2008
My room is really small!
Well, I've not update my blog recently due to connectivity issue. I've no proper internet connection till now! (Yes, till now.) I'm still using the sucky + slow-like-snail, damn bloody expensive wifi service provided by the hotel. No choice.
Actually I do have a proper + fast + reliable internet connection in the hostel. However, I'd rather not to move into it.
My room is super duper small till I don't know how to describe. It's apparently smaller than my wardrobe! OMG! I really don't know how am I going to survive in that room that is comparable to a kennel in the next few months!
When I unpack my luggages in the room, I was really pissed off. I cant even get a place to stand. "Pek cek!"
Actually I do have a proper + fast + reliable internet connection in the hostel. However, I'd rather not to move into it.
My room is super duper small till I don't know how to describe. It's apparently smaller than my wardrobe! OMG! I really don't know how am I going to survive in that room that is comparable to a kennel in the next few months!
When I unpack my luggages in the room, I was really pissed off. I cant even get a place to stand. "Pek cek!"
Friday 19 September 2008
I've lost the connection to the world for 2 days already. I cant
access to the internet, and I cant even use the 3g network! Maxis got
problem too. I cant dial out for unknown reason 1 hour. Ok. Now i got
my uk number and i can use its network to surf net. That's why you can
still this new post. More update will be posted when i got my proper
internet connection.
access to the internet, and I cant even use the 3g network! Maxis got
problem too. I cant dial out for unknown reason 1 hour. Ok. Now i got
my uk number and i can use its network to surf net. That's why you can
still this new post. More update will be posted when i got my proper
internet connection.
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Monday 15 September 2008
Sunday 14 September 2008
2
这是一个沉重的责任。
雪耻，
让人改观。
抗奸佞，
抵恶徒。
这对小男孩来说，
太沉了。
宿命。
所以，
小男孩要长大，
要成为男子汉，
要捍卫家园，
要打走土匪。
十八岁也不小了，
他要长大，变强。
不为什么，
只为了背负这使命。
对，
是使命。
执照将是他的第一把剑，
在风中挥舞。
把刀摆在小男孩脖子上的，
男子汉会记住。
那恶的，
定要为自己所行的哀哭忏悔。
任务即将开始。
雪耻，
让人改观。
抗奸佞，
抵恶徒。
这对小男孩来说，
太沉了。
宿命。
所以，
小男孩要长大，
要成为男子汉，
要捍卫家园，
要打走土匪。
十八岁也不小了，
他要长大，变强。
不为什么，
只为了背负这使命。
对，
是使命。
执照将是他的第一把剑，
在风中挥舞。
把刀摆在小男孩脖子上的，
男子汉会记住。
那恶的，
定要为自己所行的哀哭忏悔。
任务即将开始。
Saturday 13 September 2008
3
好快，真得好快。只剩下三天了。
人生必经的阶段，我就要去面对了。
这是我的第一次，
第一次离家。
这三年，
我一定要好好的熬过去。
拿了执照，
前面是大晴天。
不管怎样，
我都要拿个 First Class Honour (LLB)。
不管怎样，
我都要在四间 Inns of Court 的其中一间被 "called to the bar"
我不会辜负我父母的，
我要将这荣耀归给主，
我不会让我的朋友失望，
我不会被人看扁！
我要让觊觎者被自己的诡计所害。
我要让那些不看好我的，等我跌倒的，对我刮目相看。
我要让攻击我的知道我不是病猫。
汉礼，你休把昨日壮语豪言付予等闲间！
可是，我不想离开这里！
这是我生活了十八年的城市，
有我的家人，
我的朋友，
我的一切。
我的离开，
正意味着我必须一切重来，
慢慢的摸索一座陌生城市，
重新设立社交圈，
建立自己的生活，
凡事要自己面对。
高兴时，
没人一起分享喜悦。
伤心时，
没有人在身旁安慰，
也没有那家里温暖的被窝供我哭泣。
生气时，
没人倾听苦处。
不爽时，
没人听我发牢骚。
我怕我不能敞开心房，
接受新城市的一切。
我要去面对。
人生必经的阶段，我就要去面对了。
这是我的第一次，
第一次离家。
这三年，
我一定要好好的熬过去。
拿了执照，
前面是大晴天。
不管怎样，
我都要拿个 First Class Honour (LLB)。
不管怎样，
我都要在四间 Inns of Court 的其中一间被 "called to the bar"
我不会辜负我父母的，
我要将这荣耀归给主，
我不会让我的朋友失望，
我不会被人看扁！
我要让觊觎者被自己的诡计所害。
我要让那些不看好我的，等我跌倒的，对我刮目相看。
我要让攻击我的知道我不是病猫。
汉礼，你休把昨日壮语豪言付予等闲间！
可是，我不想离开这里！
这是我生活了十八年的城市，
有我的家人，
我的朋友，
我的一切。
我的离开，
正意味着我必须一切重来，
慢慢的摸索一座陌生城市，
重新设立社交圈，
建立自己的生活，
凡事要自己面对。
高兴时，
没人一起分享喜悦。
伤心时，
没有人在身旁安慰，
也没有那家里温暖的被窝供我哭泣。
生气时，
没人倾听苦处。
不爽时，
没人听我发牢骚。
我怕我不能敞开心房，
接受新城市的一切。
我要去面对。
Friday 12 September 2008
越走越远 赵默
越走越远
云到底要往哪里飞
能不能把我的思念
带回那个小小的屋檐
站在窗前
看着云在陪我掉眼泪
寂寞没有人能了解
却把整片天空都染灰
想要试着勇敢一点
我闭上了双眼
跟昨天说再见
不知道有什么人听见
想要试着长大一点
人总是要改变
一个人去面对
也许还要多一点时间
越走越远
每件事总会变成从前
只是明天来临之前
今夜我还是一样失眠
云到底要往哪里飞
能不能把我的思念
带回那个小小的屋檐
站在窗前
看着云在陪我掉眼泪
寂寞没有人能了解
却把整片天空都染灰
想要试着勇敢一点
我闭上了双眼
跟昨天说再见
不知道有什么人听见
想要试着长大一点
人总是要改变
一个人去面对
也许还要多一点时间
越走越远
每件事总会变成从前
只是明天来临之前
今夜我还是一样失眠
Thursday 11 September 2008
5
这五天，我希望我可以过得很丰富。求神能让这五天的时间，过得慢些，好让我可以好好的和家人朋友度过。
这会是一个很好的磨练，求主引领！我从来没离开过家人超过三天的，就算是旅行，我们都是同行的。我独自一人到过最远的地方也不过是马赛附近的海边的生活营。我这朵温室的小花，即将要自己去面对国外的生活，陌生的地方，陌生的文化。
Natural selection takes part. When selective pressure acts on me, will I evolve? Oops... Bio...
我怕，真的很怕。但我不知道我在怕些什么。我怕我不能适应，冲动下订机票返马。在不理智的情况下，我真的做得出来。
我是个很容易自卑的人。很多时候，我都觉得我在许多方面都不如别人。到了那儿，我铁定回应为我的英语程度与口才感到自卑。我怕我会因为这样，变得很孤僻，然后变成自闭儿。到时，我怕我连一个朋友都交不到，一个人孤独寂寞。我怕被排挤，我怕一个人，我怕输给别人！怕。
不善表达。现在的我，纵然心里有很多话要说，但我真的不知道该怎么说。
还是不说了，就让它在心里某个角落示意吧！
这会是一个很好的磨练，求主引领！我从来没离开过家人超过三天的，就算是旅行，我们都是同行的。我独自一人到过最远的地方也不过是马赛附近的海边的生活营。我这朵温室的小花，即将要自己去面对国外的生活，陌生的地方，陌生的文化。
Natural selection takes part. When selective pressure acts on me, will I evolve? Oops... Bio...
我怕，真的很怕。但我不知道我在怕些什么。我怕我不能适应，冲动下订机票返马。在不理智的情况下，我真的做得出来。
我是个很容易自卑的人。很多时候，我都觉得我在许多方面都不如别人。到了那儿，我铁定回应为我的英语程度与口才感到自卑。我怕我会因为这样，变得很孤僻，然后变成自闭儿。到时，我怕我连一个朋友都交不到，一个人孤独寂寞。我怕被排挤，我怕一个人，我怕输给别人！怕。
不善表达。现在的我，纵然心里有很多话要说，但我真的不知道该怎么说。
还是不说了，就让它在心里某个角落示意吧！
Wednesday 10 September 2008
Photos
I have uploaded my photos taken in kedah/Penang to my flickr. Feel
free to visit ya! =)
free to visit ya! =)
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Tuesday 2 September 2008
My Dream and My Future
Be patient and read the whole thing if you really want to know about me. It's quite long, compared with my previous post. If you are not interested, you can just glance through or even skip this. But please don't ever ask me why I don't continue in sciences, I'm sick of answering that question. Thanks for those who read.
___________________________________________________________________________________
My waiting is a long haul indeed. I've dreamt of admitting into a prestigious university since the first day me literate. Though this is not the one I yearn for, but I guess this will be a good one, for me to experience -- life.
While I was in primary school, I had told my fellow little playmates about my ambitious notion. Every child dreams. I was thinking of being comparable to the nobles, Einstein, Edison was my role model. I was the only student in my class who bought science magazine meant for upper primary students from the bookshop while I was in standard 2. Telling information from the magazines to my friends was my interest, though they couldn't understand me. In May of every year of my schooling times, we were asked to write 3 of our ambition. I always put "scientist" at the first column. I didn't think about which field of science I want to be in, as I do not have the complete image about science in my head. I just want to be a scientist that invents stuffs. I wrote things I want to invent in the future in papers, drew about rough design about how the things looks. I was so obsess in it. I told my parents about my ambition, and they supported me too. I was told that I must get excellent result for all these. I strived for these.
I'm not sure when the feeling comes -- I felt obliged to do law, without my parents persuading me. It was a strong feeling. Perhaps it is God's will, guiding me to a better path. And perhaps is due to conservative value that always flows in every Chinese's blood, including mine, that boy must be the inheritor. Otherwise, I'll be an unfilial child. My great aspiration to be a scientist had become obsolete since then.
Until I was in Secondary 4, I was exposed to much information about drug making -- I'm being introduced to chemistry at that level. My interest in science rekindled. I had decided to further my studies in ANU for pharmacy. I worked hard for it.
I knew that science and arts subjects aren't destined to be together, which means I'll have to make a final decision at the end.
So chose law, and I tried to develop my interest in other arts subject. I attended to many seminars about investing, banking, business, politics and other related ones. I wanted to take up an additional subject. I don't want to be tied up to a single subject in the future. Law won't take me too far, but business will.
During A-Levels, I was really into banking and investment stuffs. Maybe it was due to my attending to seminars. I listened to stories about successful fund managers in Wall Streets. I searched for information about emerging markets. Hence, I considered about taking Law and Finance double degree. It is a five years course. Due to some unforeseen circumstances, I was forced to drop that idea of taking a double degree. I have to obtain a qualification as fast as I can.
Now, it is only 2 weeks to my departure to The University of Manchester. I've to complete my obligation first before I can take up another subject. Few weeks ago, Sis Serin who had been working in my dad's firm for 20 years and looked me growing up asked me: "You've always told me you want to invent many things. But now why did you end up with law?" I remain silent. The rest of the conversation, I should keep mum about. She knows me quite well.
I'll give myself a long holiday, a real long one, after I've done my part. Perhaps it will last 5 years, 10 years or the rest of my life. I may not be able to take the holiday. Things are unpredictable. There may be drawbacks for me to do so. I'm going to have my own family in the future. If I'm only interested in pursuing my dreams, what will happen to them? I really have no idea about this. My conclusion: obligation is not parallel to what you dream for. The more you stand for obligation, the further you are away from your dream.
The only thing I'm very certain to tell you: "I will never be tied up in one field."
As politics is related to law as well, I hope that I will have a chance to take part in it, to uphold the juridical system, which has been dirtied by those people for years. I admit that I do still stammer when I talk, and my English level is not high either -- I got merely 6.5 for IELTS, which I feel ashamed of it. I'll try my best to overcome these.
I want to start my own enterprise before I'm 30.
I'm going to do a lot of things.
There are someone who ask me to go for my interest, what I like. But I answered: "Interest can be nurtured, and it is ever changing." History, which is the subject I hated the most when I was in secondary 1; I started to develop my interest in it after few years of studying it.
Now, I've fabricated a "dream" for myself. Law will be my very first step. My short term aim will be: getting a first class degree in law and get into The Honourable Society of Lincoln's Inn for my Bar Vocational Course.
I'll make it. It's just the matter of time.
___________________________________________________________________________________
My waiting is a long haul indeed. I've dreamt of admitting into a prestigious university since the first day me literate. Though this is not the one I yearn for, but I guess this will be a good one, for me to experience -- life.
While I was in primary school, I had told my fellow little playmates about my ambitious notion. Every child dreams. I was thinking of being comparable to the nobles, Einstein, Edison was my role model. I was the only student in my class who bought science magazine meant for upper primary students from the bookshop while I was in standard 2. Telling information from the magazines to my friends was my interest, though they couldn't understand me. In May of every year of my schooling times, we were asked to write 3 of our ambition. I always put "scientist" at the first column. I didn't think about which field of science I want to be in, as I do not have the complete image about science in my head. I just want to be a scientist that invents stuffs. I wrote things I want to invent in the future in papers, drew about rough design about how the things looks. I was so obsess in it. I told my parents about my ambition, and they supported me too. I was told that I must get excellent result for all these. I strived for these.
I'm not sure when the feeling comes -- I felt obliged to do law, without my parents persuading me. It was a strong feeling. Perhaps it is God's will, guiding me to a better path. And perhaps is due to conservative value that always flows in every Chinese's blood, including mine, that boy must be the inheritor. Otherwise, I'll be an unfilial child. My great aspiration to be a scientist had become obsolete since then.
Until I was in Secondary 4, I was exposed to much information about drug making -- I'm being introduced to chemistry at that level. My interest in science rekindled. I had decided to further my studies in ANU for pharmacy. I worked hard for it.
I knew that science and arts subjects aren't destined to be together, which means I'll have to make a final decision at the end.
So chose law, and I tried to develop my interest in other arts subject. I attended to many seminars about investing, banking, business, politics and other related ones. I wanted to take up an additional subject. I don't want to be tied up to a single subject in the future. Law won't take me too far, but business will.
During A-Levels, I was really into banking and investment stuffs. Maybe it was due to my attending to seminars. I listened to stories about successful fund managers in Wall Streets. I searched for information about emerging markets. Hence, I considered about taking Law and Finance double degree. It is a five years course. Due to some unforeseen circumstances, I was forced to drop that idea of taking a double degree. I have to obtain a qualification as fast as I can.
Now, it is only 2 weeks to my departure to The University of Manchester. I've to complete my obligation first before I can take up another subject. Few weeks ago, Sis Serin who had been working in my dad's firm for 20 years and looked me growing up asked me: "You've always told me you want to invent many things. But now why did you end up with law?" I remain silent. The rest of the conversation, I should keep mum about. She knows me quite well.
I'll give myself a long holiday, a real long one, after I've done my part. Perhaps it will last 5 years, 10 years or the rest of my life. I may not be able to take the holiday. Things are unpredictable. There may be drawbacks for me to do so. I'm going to have my own family in the future. If I'm only interested in pursuing my dreams, what will happen to them? I really have no idea about this. My conclusion: obligation is not parallel to what you dream for. The more you stand for obligation, the further you are away from your dream.
The only thing I'm very certain to tell you: "I will never be tied up in one field."
As politics is related to law as well, I hope that I will have a chance to take part in it, to uphold the juridical system, which has been dirtied by those people for years. I admit that I do still stammer when I talk, and my English level is not high either -- I got merely 6.5 for IELTS, which I feel ashamed of it. I'll try my best to overcome these.
I want to start my own enterprise before I'm 30.
I'm going to do a lot of things.
There are someone who ask me to go for my interest, what I like. But I answered: "Interest can be nurtured, and it is ever changing." History, which is the subject I hated the most when I was in secondary 1; I started to develop my interest in it after few years of studying it.
Now, I've fabricated a "dream" for myself. Law will be my very first step. My short term aim will be: getting a first class degree in law and get into The Honourable Society of Lincoln's Inn for my Bar Vocational Course.
I'll make it. It's just the matter of time.
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