璀璨的烟火 -- Manchester Bon Fire Night

昨晚的烟火，
煞是美丽。
但独自一人坐在草地看烟火，
感觉还是怪怪的，
还像缺了些什么。。。空虚。。。
香槟？
err...
对！就是香槟！和湘益

似乎在天堂 赞美之泉

人群中我悄悄地出走
忘记了已流浪了多久
我的灵魂好孤单
静静地让往事沉淀
找不到暂时的休息站
一路上总忘记了被爱
我的记忆已空白
下一站哪里是未来
我记得祢说祢爱我
不论往何走祢仍抱着我
泪光中似乎看见祢的脸
原来祢一直在我身边
我愿意让祢来爱我
不愿一个人好孤单地走
我相信爱与被爱那么真实
在祢微笑中，我似乎在天堂

___________________________________________________

天堂是什麼？

我心目中的天堂是什麼？
是有幸福、快樂，沒有病痛、煩惱，和憂傷的地方？
是有平安、充滿愛，沒有孤獨、眼淚，和苦難的世界？

我在人群中，心裡卻渴望有更深的歸屬感，
我四處尋找，找不到一個真正的家的感覺；
我一個人旅行，好像很自在卻感到無比的孤獨，
我不斷付出，不斷給予，可是卻一再的被傷害，一次又一次的流淚...

直到我對這個世界失去信心；
直到我用亮麗的盔甲將自己一層層包裹；
直到我學會不期待，自己也就不會受傷；
直到我痲痹自己，日復一日的盲目的遊走...

在我心裡面，有一個我不斷用許許多多其他聲音來試著掩蓋的，極微小的聲音：

「我還是想要，那個我心目中的天堂。」
「我還是想愛，也想深深的被愛。」

直到我遇見耶穌。祂說祂愛我...
祂把我捧在手心上，祂重視我的感受。
祂看到我流淚會很心痛，祂在乎我。
祂讓我知道我的價值，遠遠超過任何人對我的讚揚或批評。
當我願意選擇接受祂的愛，
我好像在旋轉不停的世界裡，第一次找到真正屬於我的地方。
我終於，找到我的天堂。

這張專輯，要給每一個需要愛的，
希望被愛的，
不知道怎麼去愛的你跟我。

摘自：似乎在天堂专辑介绍

感谢湘益，Jennifer和Joshur的照顾！

终于病好了。。。

这两天，多亏了湘益，Jennifer和Joshur的照顾！不然，我就真的是很可怜了。

事情是这样的：星期六凌晨，我也不知道吃错了什么，食物中毒居然找上我，害我半夜起来两次，可是啥都没排出来，又涨风，涨到我要疯掉的那种。隔天早上，在吃早餐时，我已经没什么胃口了。回房不久，我就体力不支倒在床上睡着了。

睡了几个小时后，湘益打来，问我怎么没去吃午餐。真的要感谢她和她的父母！她在问了她父母要怎么处理这棘手的病人之后，与Jennifer一同拿了一大袋的药到我房里来。她们的到来真的让我感动万分，除了我妈之外，我生病时没有其他人照顾过我，真的是太感激她们了！在异乡，生病时有人照顾的感觉是很棒的！袋里的药很多，但我只拿了如意油，姜茶与红糖。擦了如意油，喝了姜茶后，我又再度进入梦乡，让姜在我肚子里与风搏斗。

睡了不久，我因为肚子饿而醒来。不知道要吃什么，翻开抽屉，拿出我的宝贝Milo来喝。喝了等于没喝，还是饿到半死，所以就煮杯面来吃。怎知，在吃了两三口之后，我突然感到胸口郁闷，把我喝的Milo给吐了出来，还我还要多喝一杯。
喝了Milo，我又倒回床继续让我的免疫系统与病魔搏斗。

不久，湘益打来，问我怎样了。看我情况不是很乐观，她又打给她的父母洽询。Uncle Auntie，真的不好意思，麻烦你们了，抱歉！因为之前我没拿那只涨风头晕呕吐的药（我以为是月经失调的药，所以没拿），湘益又再次雪中送炭，把药送来给我。感激不尽~~

之后，我一直坚持要跟大伙儿去吃晚餐，声称自己没事。呵呵！吃晚餐时，一直担心吃太多会吐，所以也没吃多少。为了迁就我，大伙儿还特地叫了清淡的食物，真是不好意思。在回家途中，开始感觉不对劲，一直发冷，应该是发烧了。

湘益，Jennifer和Joshur陪我到医院等了接近三个小时，等那没用的医生。那没用的医生说了一句话：Go back and drink more water, and take some paracetamol，就叫我走了。搞屁啊！三个小时就为了这句话？！这还不要紧，要紧的是，这医院害湘益，Jennifer和Joshur陪我等了接近三个小时。之后，他们送我回宿舍。途中天气太冷了，Joshur还将他的外套借给我，真的太感动了！

第二天早上，烧退了，感觉好多了，可以上课了，不用ponteng了。Joshur来看我，顺便把排毒茶拿来，看我没事后，他就去上课了。

接着，湘益也来了。怕我吃了会吐，所以她拿了五谷粥给我，之后她也去上课了。

这几天，我说了无数次的谢谢，thank you，对不起，sorry。。。因为真的很感谢他们，也觉得很不好意思，要麻烦他们嘛。。。

所以，在异乡，千万不要生病！就算要生病，也要有朋友在！

Untitled

Saw V! Finally watched already. This is the very first movie I watched in Manchester. Hoho... Crazy pics will be uploaded soon. =)

开始适应，接受和喜欢这城市了。 ^^

Ping Cheng's 1 TV of Electricity

My 1 TV of electricity by pcbon! Thanks! Hopefully this can resurrect my hibernating brain. LOL!

Initialising... Electricity transmitted wirelessly... Zap zap zap... Transferring data... didididadadodopingpongpiak... System re-established. Resurrection complete.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB 1st Hons LLB
Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn Lincoln's Inn
Middle Temple Middle Temple Middle Temple Middle Temple Middle Temple Middle Temple Middle Temple Middle Temple Middle Temple Middle Temple Middle Temple Middle Temple
Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple Inner Temple
Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn Gray's Inn

Wow! I like this! LOL! (This is found at the astrophysics building -- forgot the name of the building already.) Why there is no art work at the law building?! =.=

No way or just don't want to find a way?

Inspired by Teddy

Don't wish to post much about this. I just like the title : No way or just don't want to find a way.

I'll find my way out. I will study very hard. I'll get a first class honours. I'll get the admission of Lincoln's Inn. I'll be what I want to be.

All I need is just motivation. Motivation to study. I'll find the way.

Give me motivation please!

Scold me, chide me, beat me, punch me, kick me, threaten me, slap me or what so ever to make me study!

My engine just cant start properly.

Everyone is welcomed. If you are embarrassed to post it online, just scold me anonymously. Or else, just come to me in person and give me a nice punch to make me study.

I need motivation!

This lame post with a good opportunity is brought to you by http://hahaha-myterritory.blogspot.com

我要翘椅子！

Get me a plastic chair. 我要翘椅子！不翘椅子我读不下！不是幼稚，是自我风格。 =.=

I know how to cook

Hanley knows how to cook! LOL.

If exclude simple pasta and fried egg, this is my first time to cook!

I had 6 hallmates to be my professional critics (originally i put as guinea pig -- true ma, guinea pig) : Joshur, Jia Yi, Jennifer, Ah Boon, Rong and Heng Song.

I cooked red wine chicken and abalone chicken soup (fake abalone la). Taste ok la. Acceptable. Can marry a gal liao. LOL. They said one. So next time, I'll cook more often to practise my culinary skills. My hall's kitchen got oven some more. So, I can learn to bake cake already.

We had 4 dishes and 3 of them are chicken. Chicken is so cheap. 24 drumsticks for only 4 pounds. We bought it from Asda.

We've red wine chicken, abalone chicken soup, curry chicken (Joshur is an expert in cooking this) and broccoli (cooked by Jia Yi -- kena scold already as i forgot this is her contribution. sorry la. haha).

沙漠中的赞美 赞美之泉

神关起一扇门，衪必开一条新路
不疑惑，不软弱，我心仍要赞美
凡事信靠主，不失去盼望
因为我的主仍然在掌权
衪必在沙漠开江河，在旷野开道路
虽四面受敌却不被困住
我要在沙漠中赞美，在旷野中宣告
我的主永远掌权

赏赐的在于祢，收取的祢必代替
神旨意不能拦阻，我心仍要赞美
凡事信靠主，不失去盼望
因为我的主仍然在掌权
衪必在沙漠开江河，在旷野开道路
虽四面受敌却不被困住
我要在沙漠中赞美，在旷野中宣告
我的主永远掌权

衪必在沙漠开江河，在旷野开道路
虽四面受敌却不被困住
我要在沙漠中赞美，在旷野中宣告
我的主永远掌权

拒绝凋零的叶

朋友那枫叶的比喻，
很有哲理。

绿叶始终会转红，
然后在冬季凋零，
春天来临时，
绿叶又会再长出来。

我想，
我会是片固执的叶，
就算转红了，
也会拒绝凋零，
直到春的到来。

Raya

I had a lot of Malaysian food just now. So grateful that I can get it here. =)

Check out my flickr for the pics.

I took 4 rounds. 2 round for rice, 1 for penang laksa and 1 for mee rebus!

Haha! Nice.

I actually skip my breakfast purposely in order to eat more. So, I woke up at 9. I go together with my hallmates as I don't know the location. Joshur became the raya 1 day tour leader. LOL! We arrived there at around 11 (we are told that the starting time is 11).

But then we have waited for 1.5 hours before we get the food!!! =.=

I was hungry till I become crazy liao then I keep on saying nonsense　（废 one, lame one, not vulgarities la. good boy don't swear one), and do funny acts. When people get too hungry and desperate for food, this is how he acts lo. Tak boleh tahan mah!

After they announce that we can start already, I rushed to the table. Very kiasu. I still didn't manage to get the 1st place. I was the 4th in the queue. Hehe.

I eat till too full already coz I duno that I'll be that full. LOL

Anyway, they don't have satay, which is the one I wanted so much. Argh! Nevermind. I'll have it in Malaysia. Then I'll learn how to make satay and make it in Manchester.

Did anyone notice a glitch? Look properly. It's not Faculty of Arts. It's Facvlti of Arts. Haha.

I must grab sometime to visit there. Duno got gallery or not. I want to immerse myself in the world of arts! Haha!

Get me my colour please! Coffee is hard to control. Take time to dry also.

my flickr is updated. =)

There are always excuses

Study
Teacher: Why you are still relaxing? Don't you know that we are going to have a test next week?
Hanley: Yea, I know that. As you said, it's just a test. No need to study larr...

Teacher: OK. Here are your questions. Do it in 1 hour.
Hanley: Why got time limit one? Is it a test? How come I don't know one?!
Teacher: ...

Teacher: Don't you ever dare to not to study for my test again.
Hanley: I'm lazy ma.
Teacher: Lazy? Excuses. Just be prepared for your mock exam.
Hanley: Still got 3 weeks ma. It's more than enough.

Teacher: Hanley! Why you didn't do your homework again? How are you going to score for your exam?
Hanley: Homework is meant to be done in class ma. Teacher you give answer, then I copy lor. Afterthat I just study the answers then enough liao. I use the time for homework to study ma. See. I'm so hardworking. I don't do homework also can score leh.
Teacher: ...

Teacher: See la! Ask you to study but you don't want to. Now it serves you right.
Hanley: Teacher, don't like that la. It's just a test ma. Not A2. I'm sure I can score one. Don't worry. I've to reserve my brain power leh.

Hanley: See. I told you already. No need to study for test one. I don't study also can score.
Teacher: You are lucky.
Hanley: Teacher, you are correct partially only. I'm lucky and smart.
Teacher: ...

Rocking chair
Friend: Sit properly la. Later fall down again. I'm not going to rescue you again.
Hanley: You are wrong. I've never fall down from the chair for the past 2 years. (want to bluff a bit about the figure to my friend) I just NEARLY fall down only.
Friend: I'll make you fall down.
Hanley: I'm so pro in rocking chair leh. I know so many skills leh. I know how to avoid one lorr.

Teacher: Can you please stop rocking and sit properly?
Hanley: Cannot leh. This is my symbol leh.
Teacher: Why you like to rock chair so much?
Hanley: Because your class is interesting.

(My chair rocking record in the past 2 years : fall down 3 times, nearly fall down for uncountable times)

Lab negligence
Teacher: See larr. Ask you not to take SO MANY apparatus at one time. How many times have you broken the apparatus already?
Hanley: I'm practising how to take many apparatus at one time ma. See, this time I only broke a beaker. Small one some more. Got improvement liao. Not many times la. My lab deposit is enough to cover la. Maybe I have to top up my lab deposit already.

Friend: Wei! Don't put the chemicals all over the table la. Very dangerous you know!
Hanley: Aiya. The concentration is so low. I use the HCl to wash my hand before you know.
Friend: ...

Friend: Don't point the boiling tube to me while you are heating! Stupid! I don't want to sit with you already. My life is threatened!
Hanley: Won't die one la. It's just boiling NaOH ma.

I was spoon-fed

I want to be spoon-fed! I don't want self-study leh. Sien. Hav to search info 1st before I can study. =.=

No choice. Have to get used to it. I'm Malaysian ma. Everything is spoon-fed in the school one. Now have to be independent already. Don't study also no one chase after me already.

Anyone can scold me, chide me or anything if I don't study? Like that I baru got motivation ma. Haha!

Bye Bye Suria!

Good bye to Suria and bon voyage! He is going to AIMST University in Kedah to study medicine tonight (malaysian time 10pm). Be a doctor is his initial ambition. (correct me if wrong, Suria) All the best to him and hope that he'll be a good doctor. (in the future, look for me onli if you wan to buy property or wan to sue others. U'll be a good doctor and u won't nid me as a medical negligence defendant lawyer. haha!)

Enuff of craps. I'm sorry tat I cant see you off. See you when u r back in JB (and of course I must be in JB too). I'll be back on 20th Dec. Cheers!

感恩

其实，
我所要找的那感觉，
一直都在。

我就像一个淘气的孩子，
一直在父的怀里叛逆。
总认为我是孤单无助的一个人。

来了这里，
人生地不熟的，
没有认识的人，
他们说都不是我常用的语言，
行为上，文化上都有差异。
遇上了这些问题，
想家是必然的。
理由很简单，
想逃离这不属于自己的地方，
要回到最熟悉的环境。
人之常情也！

其实，
这些父都知道。
衪早就为我预备好了。
我的学业，
我的朋友，
我的所需，
衪一直不间断地为我供应着。

心情一直处于低落状态，
自己没能调适过来，
一直在孤立自己，
忌世愤俗的将自己包起来，
不让人接近。
像是刺猬，
人见人躲。

真得不该再那么的情绪化了。
想了想，
其实不止我一个人离乡背井来到陌生的地方读书，
很多朋友都是嘛。
为何人家可以适应而我不能呢？
我自己的问题吧。
自己的心境~~

虽然没有熟悉的人，
没有爱吃的食物，
没有最爱的科目，
但这是一个锻炼自己的好机会。
要学的东西很多。
这些，
都是为以后的日子铺路。
或许，
父要我预备自己，
好让我以后能被衪所拣选，使用。

所以，
我必须刚强起来，
改变！

改变是有些难，
因为人总是拒绝离开现状与舒适。
但我相信，
衪会引导我的。

衪的恩典是绝对够用的，
衪的慈爱是何等地深，
衪的意念高过我们的意念。
我虽无法知道我的价值所在，
但我知道，
我要顺服，
衪必领导我。

从现在开始，
我要享受天父所赐下的，
让他带领我将来的日子，
衪必赐福。

主是通过以下这首歌来让我振作的。感动~~
寻找 （赞美之泉）

我曾经像一只小小飞鸟，飞跃在这蓝天海上，
我无时无刻彷徨无助，找不到可以倾诉，
我曾经像一只小小飞鸟，穿梭在这城市之中，
我正在寻找那慈爱双手，那就是主耶稣。
主啊我要回到你身旁，我要回到你身旁，
那慈爱双手正等着我，来拥抱我。
主啊我要回到你身旁，我要回到你身旁，
那慈爱双手来拥抱我，那就是主耶稣。

这首歌我放在右上角了哦！

回家吧，回到最初的美好！

Emo-ing

Still can remember this picture? I miss the place I made this artistic potato. I miss Iodine. I miss Silver Nitrate. I miss Ammonia. I miss Sodium Hydroxide. I miss Lead Nitrate. I miss Hydrogen Peroxide. I miss Hydrochloric Acid. I miss Nitric Acid. I miss Sulphuric Acid. I miss Lime Water. I miss Chemistry. I miss the lab. I miss my lab coat. I miss the times I break so many apparatus. I miss Qualitative Analysis. I miss lab work. I miss Sciences. I miss those days. I miss Biology. I miss Mathematics. I miss the time when I can do whole set of Mathematics paper in 17 minutes. I miss the time I have self motivation. I miss the time I have self confidence. I miss the time I can conquer the subjects. I miss everything that I have missed.

I miss lab potato. I hate potato as my food. I don't want french fries. I don't want mashed potato. I don't want jack potato. I don't want steamed potato. I don't want wedges. I don't want chips. I don't want cooked potato. I don't want hash brown.

I don't want bacon. I don't want sausages. I don't want peas. I don't want sweet corn. I don't want super duper sweet as if sugar is free-of-charge cake. I don't want yoghurt. I don't want awful soup. I don't want tomato.

I want chicken rice with big drumstick (steamed chicken). I want char kuey tiao add a lot of cockles and a lot of chinese sausage without chilli. I want fried oyster. I want kuey tiao soup with a lot of pig viscera. I want penang laksa with half bottle of shrimp paste. I want belacan fried chicken. I want satay. I want roti canai with kuah dal. I want lok lok. I want steamboat. I want hokkian mee with a lot of zhu you zha. I want bubur chacha. I want cendol. I want ais kacang. I want my food.

I want my room. I want my tv. I want my computer. I want my pool. I want my gym. I want my library. I want my own serene space. I want to be what and how I want to be. I want my everything in Malaysia.

I want to be with my family now. I want to be with my friends now.